Its been a long time since I wrote something here on this space. I have no thoughts of abandoning this blog. God! Never. Just like everyone else I am getting busy. Tell me about growing up and handling responsibilities. And tons of them. You see, for a long time, I imagined I would never grow up. And never become one of those irritable elders that I have seen people transform into. But now, standing here on the threshold, walking miles in their steps, I feel their anguish. Difficult people, difficult situations, people who make mountains out of molehills, one has to deal with them. Everyday. Every single moment. One feels like one is waiting for the days to be over. Just over. I have seen the worst blue days of my life in the past few days. I have yelled, become snappy, jumped out of madness over someone, etc, etc, in the last few days than I ever did in all my life. Looking at it, I don't repent it. People yelled at me, and I yelled back at them. Case closed. Which is so totally unlike me. Earlier, I would not bother to yell back. Did I tell you how nagging parents can be over some things, I understand their concerns but really they are stepping on my toes this time. I love them still.
Change is welcome when it is for good. Also, talking about dusting of cow webs on my blog, there are some fun things that I have done too. Remember that I spoke of how badly wanted to have a research paper published, I went ahead with that idea and got it done. The paper is under review in one of the journals, and I am pretty sure that it is going to be published. I am contemplating doing a Phd in the near future.
On the other hand, I took off my regular well paying job and went ahead and built a house. I laid the bricks of the house, applied the mortar, and worked on the house like any other laborer would have. I thought that was exhilarating, awesome fun.
Another thing, I never opened the email of this blog. But recently after a long time, I did open it. There were no new comments on it. However, one person by the name MB had written a personal email of how he enjoyed reading my blog as much. Thanks MB. I don't know if I write well, however, I felt good reading an email telling that I write well. Thanks again. These days, friends and other people never write back. You took the time and patience to read my blog and write an email as well. Thank you.
Its not like I dont have good friends, its just that all my good friends are in different places and I find it difficult to make new friends. P, You know how I miss u. Regarding the snappy behavior, I am going to take some time off and make new things happen. If you ask me if I was happy, its not like I am unhappy. I aimed at 100% and I am here standing at 80%. SO ITS FINE. :-) Overall, I love a challenge, and life has been kind enough to provide lots of them. Sometimes, so much that I cannot handle them. However, I am happy with the overall quality of life. There are some loop holes and flaws, but hey I still have the 20% to compete with.
With that, I make a grand comeback to my blog.
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